Well Lee, I guess I was pretty much like every other teen who had developed the fetish in early childhood. When I realized that seeing a woman holding, dragging or especially exhaling in a picture sent a tingle throughout my body, I began descretely to collect any and every picture I could from discarded magazines with VS ads, B&H ads, etc with a lovely women holding a cigarette, or movie stars smoking, and when I could get my hands on them the pictures from playboy or penthouse with a nude model smoking. The pictures were my fantasies and playground for my smoking fetish imagination. At least the pictures were until my mother found them cleaning out my closet, and I thought that I would be in some really dangerous ground showing any importance to them. I was wrong though, she took it all in stride, and being a female smoker herself, seemed to understand completely, although it still didn't stop her from throwing the box away! She must have known I was attracted to smoking, having contributed to my fetish herself at an early age, but felt it was inappropriate as a parent to just let me have my box of fantasy. As an young adult, I began collecting clips from movies on a single VCR tape, which I kept until my pending marriage and erased. When I confessed everything about my fetish to my wife, including the tape, her only question was, "Now why did you go and erase it, I would have loved to have seen that". Go figure.....Ah well, I was just your average paranoid fetisher, so what could you expect!
