I think that is why your previous post to this got to me on such a level was the way it just brought forth my own personal memories. That word you used to describe your own feelings about it, "Violated" is a great descriptive word for that transitional phase of being a non fetisher now forced to deal with something over powering and at first pungent to your nostrils. You can see it happening before your eyes, watch as those first tendrils of smoke from this beautiful woman reach out to embrace you and in a matter of seconds engulf you in such a fog that even your young tender eyes begin to burn with it's thickness. It was if your mother and her friends were completely immune to such feelings, either ignorant of what it was doing to you or of a mindset that you would indeed "get used to it" since you had little choice in the matter. To use a rather strong metaphor as a description, 'It was if your little pink lungs were being raped by their exhales'. Although I don't consider it such a trama it is obvious that many of us share that experience and how our own minds adapted it to fit the idea of all the good and wonderful things that these women did for us. I became a fetisher for women smoking because of those early experiences and adore, worship and love women who do smoke now. Couldn't ever imagine wanting to be with a nonsmoking female in a relationship other than a one night stand in which I would be thinking of her smoking the entire time!
